There is a beautiful man sitting next to me…

Possibly the most beautiful I have ever seen. No. Actually, he is THE most beautiful man I have ever seen – playing League of Legends in between researching the heart’s electromagnetic frequencies…

While typing this, I was overwhelmed by the sensations in my body telling me that I  would do anything for him. You know, racing heartbeat, butterflies, raging hormones – all  that.

It’s a bitingly cold, rainy and windy autumn day in May. Wellington is a prime little city  for this kind of weather. Robed in no less than 3 layers of clothing, beanie, scarf, gloves,  sitting under a heater, I can’t quite comprehend what my life would have been like back in sunny, tropical South Africa had I not followed my heart, or rather, this beautiful man sitting next to me.

I have vivid memories as a teenager creating a list of who “the man of dreams” is. Not knowing what I was looking for, I started listing the usual qualities you would think of for these things – good-looking, great personality, good sense of humour, etc. Boy did I get just that! And only that…

Every person has a “great personality” in essence. They just all may not gel with yours and vice versa. I later learned that being absolutely specific about what you want was the way to go.

This relationship ended, of course. (Thank God)

So I updated my list and added in more specific qualities or traits that were missing which, not surprisingly, resembled a good chunk of my previous relationship. It came with a lot of challenges that I convinced myself to accept, which kept me from being who I so much desired to be. The relationship lasted approximately 2.5 years.

I was left with myself, wondering what I would do with myself, remembering dreams I had of leaving South Africa, travelling, living Timeless Love‘the life’ and painfully feeling the doubts that any of that would happen because I couldn’t see ‘how’ to get there. I was forced to discover myself. My “the man of my dreams” list converted to my “ideal relationship” list and more details were mentally added to it. After many discoveries and realizations, one lesson became clear as day – that we are reflections of our most personal relationships because ‘like’ attracts ‘like’ and so I needed to be that ideal person in my list first. There is a quote by Neale Donald Walsch that perfectly reflects this idea. It stayed with me after years of reading his books and I still treasure it to this day; “Be who you are looking for and who you are looking for will find you“. This quote had started making a whole world more of sense and I began to genuinely practice this wonderful truth everyday. Since I had made that life-transformational commitment a year ago,I find myself, in this most amazing moment, to be sitting next to the most beautiful man in my world and he is my husband.

And this is the beginning of our love story…